Alone.

Alone, it is a good word in my opinion, and it means to relieve and free from any bother and agitation; tranquility. I always hope for solitariness, for ever. I loathe the people to obtrude the tranquility I had built up for. Because of the solitariness, I can feel the peace and placidity.

Nonetheless, if there is a bother, and it pester me for some lunatic reasons, I will damn well go crazy! This also leads me to have no friends, but it is so keen that I desire for, because I can get rid of the fake and hypocritical mask and to be the real me. The real me, is just a humourous person of a kind, and love to tell jokes to make people laugh and the job will never let spirits down.

Friends are whom can't be bother, because they always need you to put so much efforts and times with them, not only to perpetuate the conversation although with so much unwilling thoughts. Someone like me occasionally  try to relinquish and end up a conversation, and each conversation will not last long. Just answering the unpleasant interrogation and it will always end up with, 'I'm busy right now, later?' or 'gotta go now, see you later', even ruder, 'Bye' just in short message, easy right? but it can hurt one's heart.

You will always need to seem gregarious, so will need to smile to them. Do people know that smile is an exhausted task? I mean, do people always need to smile, because it seem so unwilling and hypocritical. Even though I know that pure smile can brighten a person's mood even herself aura, but for me, it is so insincere. I will guess if they have some slyly schemes, because people are as cunning as fox.

I only believe in God, because everything is predestined, and I know HE will definitely prepare the best for me.

So, remain emo...