A fool

That day,I was fooled by someone.

Was it because I'm too timid or vulnerable? I'm imperturbable that after the mischief that had utterly done. If have the opportunity, I will screech in arrant rant!
It started off after the History lesson. I was almost perished in the heap of History's issue. Leave out the exaggeration of the fatigue, I was laid askance on the table, which led me in supine posture, need my attention to be drawn into the History book.
After the vivid colour in the book, the next thing I glimpsed recklessly was Emmanuel, when he promptly drubbed my back. I gave him an unruffled glare on his eyes, My body was total weary and it negate me to slapped him into bits! If the time wheel reversed on, I tell you, I would.

I could say my nerve cells doesn't worked well that time, laze worked. My bladder urgently full, and rapidly, I accelerated my pace to the toilet. In my blurred vision, I saw the students in Art class threw peculiar stared towards me. I asked myself, was my appearance too compelling...Crap The passer-by all daze when they saw me, what have I done? When I went back to class, I saw my classmates were mocked at me, I dishevel my hair in curiousness. Then, a good-heart person, Kar Yee ,seized the The Thing on my back. I was conscious, I was a moron who fooled by Emmanuel's practical joke!

I went into the classroom, I was the moron who deserve a roomful of stares. I sheer their stares sheepishly, and I gain insight from their stares that they had knew I had been fooled by someone's prank.

Then, a lot of hubbub arose after I was seated. I was indignant with my enmity! I didn't want to distracted from more others' attention, so I kept my silence, and ingested all the resentment into my stomach. I couldn't preoccupied on my studies after, because I really couldn't! Emmanuel, the crime, went towards me,in crop failure. I was surrendered to his devilry. I could only said he was the mischievous and childish of the most!

I asked Yuen Ling, a friend who sited behind me and observed all his hoax. She berated Emmanuel's doing, which was also a mercy to me but I asked her why she didn't expatiated what Emmanuel done. She said the going was too rapid, and she had no chance to talk. She also explained that The Thing was something like memo but a bigger in size. Curious.

'Then, what had been written on it?' I asked with doubt.
'I don't know. It was too hush-hush, barely I could see,' she answered.

Yet, those are flummery, I knew. I was planned to have revenge on him; yet, she exhorted me not to avenge because it seemed to be so insidious, and is better to endured what the crime had done. Crime does not pay, he will get retribution from what he had done for his devilment，

It will be an evocative memories for me in the future.

End of story.

Co-curricular book.

Last someday (Forgot the date), we were very busy for the Co-curriculum book. They enquired the teachers who was obliged in the related co-curricular activities. Seem them very hectic for their co-curricular marks, I also went for the teacher to seal for the co-curricular books as an evidence for the authorities to know that you was really attended the activities.
   
I saw Elisha, a friend who was copied the activities from Su Yi's co-curricular book. I knew very much that Su Yi attended so many BSMM (Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia) activities and also got the obliged teacher's signature. Suddenly, a rapacious thought came into my mind, I wished that I can also have attended the activities, thus I would get the co-curricular marks from what I had attended, but I comprehended that it was impossible.

I glance unjustly what Elisha had done, the next thing came into my sight was that he was going to asked for the signature. The teacher suspected he did not attended the activities, but he explained so much for his reasons, again recognised that he had attended. Okay, Elisha was no doubt a member of debate club, and he recently went for a chinese debate challenge, of course, his way of disputation never defeated. So much efforts, the teacher permitted to sign for every activities that he had copied from Su Yi and sealed on it.

The greed raised in my heart, in additional desire, I could not resist anymore, I did what Elisha had did... I was very happy because teacher did not realise that it was all fake! Not only form 2, I also swindle to get marks for the form 1. It was total enthusiasm and my heartbeat increase rapidly by the excitement. Just I came into my class, another friend whose name is Sherry, scowled whilst aggrieved and protested that it was totally unfair... I just kept her words nonsensical and non sequitur did asked Su Yi what's was going to do next about the co-curricular book.

Another friend, Linley, who was sat beside her, she gave me a perception  of incontrovertible conscious that aroused me from slumber... 'You have showed up then is attend, absent then leave it absence ,can you please don't made the absence turned into present?'(Google translate)

Finally, I realized that I was unconscious because the benefits in sight.. Sure I knew that everything I should struggle to got it myself, but I did not realize what I had done just to achieve acme, but at least, I had learnt a lesson.

Happy Birthday to myself

Yesterday was my birthday. No greetings, no cards, just a little birthday cake accompany my birthday. At least, I have birthday songs.. Am I too easily to satisfy? I more-or-less forgot my birthday until my sister reminded me. I was surprising.

I felt alone when my eldest sister went for the Lion Dance's camp, my mum was at Sri Aman visited my gandfather who was sicked.They can't celebrate birthday with me and I knew their difficulty. But not really alone, as I have my father, my two younger sister who sang birthday's rhythms to me, I was grateful. Birthday's song are simple whilst short; yet, sweet. Very appreciate what I have in hand, my family and also the birthday cake.

It was fewer and fewer friends know my birthday's date and the fewest greet me Happy Birthday. Now, I truly realize that I don't have many precious friends. I still thankful to God that I was found out that yesterday was my birthday and with lots of joyful astonishment and celebrated it peacefully and tranquilly.

Happy Birthday to myself, Alexander. You have just turned into 15!

Holiday

I am not as the people who was idyllic because of the holidays. They don't mean anything. My overwhelm stress still not liberate. I still tacit, silent, speechless, quiet... Maybe I should go for a park? Eyeing those people greeting and forced smile, listening the pleasantries and laughter... I prefer to stay at home facing the wall, stare at it faded with whitewash... BORING!

Maybe go for shopping then? Glimpse across the attire, garments, promotions.. BORING. Squander their money on those clothes, the hubris people are holding their shopping bags, yaa.. seriously, they just show off their wealth.

Maybe I go for a roam at the seaside? The fascinated scene do really irresistible. But, I was sicked these days..

AWWW... DARN! Projects everywhere@ How can I release all that at the back of my head? It can't...

The school rule - Books should be bring back before exams should be abolish.

Finally, my final battle towards the devil of exams was ended that Friday; yet, I met new quest, 'the school officially expropriated my books and recognised that they won't give back the books.

The topic repeated,SHOULD IT BE NECESSARY TO BRING ALL THE POSSESSION HOME? I was apprehensive and had been intimidated by the affair but I could do nothing. Moreover, the event happen before the exam start, it really affected my frame-of-mind. My mind turn bizarre, more-or-less, blank.

What kind of law is that? There's no mean to brought back the books before the exams. The reason to do that is the school wanted to make sure that everyone have their revision and study for their exams. If someone who neither care nor aware about their studies, they will not even flip one page of the books, not even one jerk even though they take back their books.

Besides,I was not carry them back because it was excessive heavy loads. I just needed to bring them back day by day. After the exams of certain subject, I will brought them back home and put them on my book shelves. By then, they uttered that this was a punishment. They should really contemplate this rules and I though I'm an obedient student who do not deserve demerit.

I just obtuse of a kind. You can't blame me, as the speech of the people on the stage during assembly is not noticeable, the hubbubs in front have huddled whilst covered the pricipal's voice. Doesn't it bother if after the exam ,you still need to bring back books to school, and you still meet the holidays again and need to bring back... the going just a harass. Fortunately they returned the books and as a reparation, I have been demerit unfortunately by those duds. At least, I'm still a good boy in teachers' sight, am I?

Answer - Of Course.

And, I firmly insisted that the school rule- Books should be bring back before exams should  must be abolished.

Past

This time, the scapegoat he found is another girl, and it has been change to another target for becoming a very victim. He now says that she is the one who complain about the teacher, it was just a rumour from the others. Just forget it..

Exam week, DEATH. I have attempted so much on study until though I'm insane. I hope I can do the best of me in this exam. I am one-of-a-kind that knew the questions of test paper, are this is a kind of fraud? Keeping everything inside the first, a pain.

Confront the facts please, myself! You are not the competitors in study, you are just a wimp that scared of failure. I felt so stressed these days; yet, the exams still needs me.

Be at ease.. Everything will pass by and be the past.

Complain

Such a WIMP! Whoever complain the teachers in A class is such a wimp that he/she doesn't want to admit. I am very tired of the rumor. They all spread that I'm the one who complain. I just want to split out loud, I'M NOT THE ONE WHO COMPLAIN ABOUT THE TEACHERS OF 2A CLASS! I don't want to repeat it again. Besides, if you people don;t ever believe in me, fine, just like that, I don't want to explain anything again. Whatever.

This wimp, is a very annoying person. Eat nothing better than do to complain about the teachers. Is that real the teachers not even teach us? they have devote on their duty, and why this wimp still complain about then? *****, admit it please, you have made us so much trouble. By then, I have lots of  pails of homework haven't do. I know I look like the one who really care and put so much time and efforts on my study, but if you really do know me, you will believe I'm not the one who like the people think of. I only do the study stuff in moderation. I won't overdone it, as i know when the water is too full and the water still get going, it will flow out. That's what I'm now, the real me.


Very fortunate, I was not shiver on the stage. As I was absent when the assembly was going on. Sorry, students in A class, I had disappointed you and the teachers. Hope they didn't mind. At least, the cultural clothes was not wore by anybody.