But the truth is if you want something you have never had, you have to do something you have never done. So the first step I would take, is to get out of that comfort zone, confront my fear, realize God is bigger than those trivial fears of mine, and to tell myself to stay put. And to get out of my comfort zone, I need to put away my pride and ego, before I get into serving the people. It dawns on me that the fear is so overwhelming because how shallow my faith and confidence were.
I'm not just scared, I'm terrified. I have to get down on my priority list and my time management. Job and study and exams cram in a sardine can. Also, I'm like a newbie born to a brand new world. A greenhorn like me can only deserve a trifling amount of RM 900 per month. Some people say it is a scam of providing such a low pay, yet there are words saying it's an average pay in an economic recession.
I basically obtain RM 30 per day and less than RM 3 per hour. After the deduction of the lunch and dinner expenses, let's say I spent the least of RM 5 for each meal, I may only obtain RM 20 per day, not including my petrol expenses. All in all, I may not earn much per month, but in a positive prospect, I may gain some experience in the particular field. So that is the only reason I get to work on next tiring Monday.
I wish to start afresh with that new job in the IT store. I don't have any idea of what I'm going to do and what I have to deal with anything held in store. For many reasons I have thought not to go for it, but with one God's command to serve the people as if you are serving God Himself, so I'd give it a go, come what may.
What I have to do now is not to care much and leave everything in His hand for I know He will rule and reign my life. He's the author of the script of my life which star me in the main role of that movie, a movie of life. And I'd present the best of I could for God's sake.
Wish me all the best then.
